Ariadne's Thread

Left Wing

it's time to stop playing around

I must succed in whatever I do

isolation

is that the key

is that the way to my dream

remove myself from the wolrd

I have never fit in

should I try harder

shave my head and feel the pain

the pain of being someeone else

I can't be anyone but me

why must I live this life

why can't I be someone else

I wonder why there is so mush

and I don't have enough

to seek fortune where others reign

to seek solace amoungst the thorns and the roses

I don't find anything here

I don't find anyone waiting

I need to go on

fighting

but I gave up long ago

if I don't succeed then throw in the towel

college struck me pretty hard

but I fought back

and won

but the rest of my life suffered

it was such a battle to win

and many casulites were lost

my love

my humanity

she can keep hers

hidden under a veil of happiness

under a veil of deciet

she runs off to conceal her pain

I just sit in mine

content that I am victorious

content that I have won

perhaps this is something of a lie

perhaps this is something of a dream

I wonder how she does it

where will I be six years from now

where will I hide when it is all over

what do I do

where do I go

you seek something that doesn't exist

I fit for something that I can never win

we are understated in our cause

you think nothing og it

I find the whole thing a nightmare

waiting to grab me at every turn

why can't I have your life

why can't I find peace within my soul

I have no one I can turn to

it is like before

well worse now

before there were at least people I would do things with

now there are no one

nothing

if you can imagine that

my family is no more

I don't believe I have a family

I don't think they care

what if I did kill myself

what if the razor slipped

every day is a struggle

I have learned to deal with it

you think it is all a dream

and I wake every night in a pool of sweat

finding me beneath this wisdom

I want to talk to you

but I don't know what to say

please call me

tell me your all right

check up on me

I have fucked all this up haven't I

playing my games

my problem is that I can't finish the game that I am winning

I can't go for the score

I can't give it that last breathe

to win

I give in

and surrender

letting everyone have their victory