Ariadne's Thread

I just want to remember you, they way you are

the way I see you now

in this photograph I see before me

now, I want to touch you, reach out, try to say something

but that would break the silence

break the code

make things...become complicated

messy

spilling over the top

emotions going every where

I just want to sit and look at you, your chloroform eyes, bleached hair, baby pink lips, no smile, no frown, daze, haze, glaze washed over your body, what I can see of it, I am humble, I am remiss, dream of a kiss, but I cannot touch, you, here, there, I cannot reach you even if you are near, this image is all I have to remind me you exist, without it, you would be gone, vanish, disappear from my mind, and I would have to find another one, another....

I see her walking, short, small, beautiful despite her stone cold stare

I see her moving, sitting, breathing under my nose, I do not know what to say, what to do, even how to call her name

remain

she stays in my mind after she is gone

linger

I take my fingers, run them through my hair, wishing she was thre, as I look up, by chance she is, and my heart stutters, I cannot think of what to say, where did she go, what is her name, could I call it out if I knew, would I go there if I knew where to find her, could I, should I, or would she think me too silly, ugly, or just not right